“I love you” you mouth to him before you let your eyes fall closed.
2 hours had already passed since Sherlock had brought (f/n) to the hospital when john arrived. “Oh god, oh god what happened?!” john demanded
“John it was Moriarty… it was my fault I knew he was going to try something and I let her out of my sight and… and” Sherlock’s voice cracks slightly.
“I knew I shouldn't have brought her into this, I just wanted to protect her from everything, I just wanted to keep her safe. I’m so stupid, I have to find a way to keep her safe. I-I’ll ask my cousins if she can live with them in Lincoln. I’ll send her to visit the US, she has to leave. I can’t keep her safe here. I-” John Rambled on.
“John Shut up! Shut up!” John stared at him in shock. “You can’t make her leave john, there’s no way she’ll agree… there’s no way I’ll agree. From now on I will keep her safe, I won’t let anything happen to her.” Sherlock was so vulnerable, as he had always pointed out, love makes one weaker. John shook his head. “John… I love her… You have to believe me… I can’t live without her.”
“Sherlock, you realize this is my sister we’re talking about. she’s almost died twice now, yet you want me to believe that you can keep her safe. You can’t keep her safe sherlock, you can’t even keep your self safe for god’s sake!”
“Please. Please! You have to let her stay!”
“She’s not a lost puppy Sherlock, She’s a human being.” John said sadly “I Just don’t think I could bear to see her get hurt anymore. I just don’t…”
“She’s more lost than you think” Sherlock said quietly. “She needs help john, I can help her john, let me help her.”
“Sherlock… no, I can’t let her stay here, she can go to America and find a job there, she always used to talk about it when she was a kid. She loved New York so much.”
“John…” Sherlock whimpered, his eyes filling with tears.
“At least let her make the decision for herself she-”
“No! She’s too reckless Sherlock! She can’t stay here!” John raised his voice in a mixture of anger and grief. “She can’t stay here anymore… I’ll go back to the apartment and pack up her things, when she wakes up I’ll put her on the first flight out.” John said firmly, and he left to head back to the flat and do just that.
Sherlock Sat next to your bedside, tears running silently over his cheeks. He held your palm between his large hands, a tear falling off his cheek onto your entwined hands. “(f/n)… I love you more than anything, I will find a way back to you no matter what.” He whispered, kissing the back of your hand. “Or else you will be my demise.”